Today, I celebrated.
I chose to relax into it.
I read. I ate toast. I took a walk with my mom.
I saw my therapist, and we talked about how I might stop giving myself such a hard time about so many things.
This chunk of time I’m in right now is so temporary. I don’t know when I might get another chance like this to have so much time on my hands. And yet, I’m having trouble just enjoying it sometimes — thinking about needing to do more or move faster or stop being so ridiculous and jump into the next thing before it’s time.
I think it’s hard in our society to just take a break. Ambition is important, but I think it’s easily overdone and overwhelming. And I think it’s a big reason why we’re more stressed out than ever.
So, at least for today, I am choosing to celebrate this time for myself.
Choosing to spend time with my parents, choosing to play with my camera, to sit in my spot and read a good book. Choosing to “do nothing.” And choosing to trust myself and the bigger picture.