So this is a big month for me.
After seven years working in the same place, I’m changing things up and pursing something brand new. Something I think I am passionate about + excited for + something that feels like me.
I feel like I just did a big trust fall with the universe.
This is big deal for me. Like a lot of people, I get very settled + comfortable where I am. I start thinking very black + white about things, and see things as totally permanent. So after seven years, I felt like where I was was it for me.
But the work wasn’t resonating with me. I was struggling. For a long time, I was thinking + praying + digging deep to try to figure out my next step, and it just wasn’t coming. And then, earlier this year, it finally showed up.
And I’m just going for it. I’m not ready to talk about my plans just yet, which I know is sort of frustrating. But I wanted to write about it because it’s so new and big and exciting and scary.
I’m apprehensive. What if it doesn’t go as planned? I don’t even really know what “the plan” looks like; I just have my end goal and a bunch of research. I’ve gotten used to not doing things like this. I stayed put for seven years because it was financially smart + felt like the responsible thing to do.
But now, I get to know that it won’t end there. When I tell my story, it will not stop at me staying somewhere that did not feel right to me, with me feeling run down and exhausted and honestly, a little bit defeated. Even in this scary unknown part, and without knowing where my story is going, I know that it includes taking a big leap.
I believe that we were all put here to enjoy life + thrive as much as we can. So I’m going to start practicing that.
Welcome to the party, March!