Happy New Year!
I am oddly thrilled about 2015. I think 2015 is going to be my year. (Saying it is a good first step, right??)
Last year, the word I chose was enjoy. I think more than really being successful with it in 2014, I kept it in the front of my mind as my mantra. The monthly goals I shared were things that I thought would bring me more enjoyment. That was a good way to stop thinking about what I thought I should be doing, and instead focus on what I might want to be doing.
2014 was hard. There were some big transitions, and a lot of trudging through. Keeping enjoy in the front of that, as the big goal at the end, was a great idea. It even reshaped the blog. It might sound frivolous, but after only being focused on the have-tos and the shoulds and the big life requirements, focusing on enjoying was awesome. It will definitely stay in the front of things this year.
My word for 2015 is self. I had actually chosen a different word, and was drafting a blog post around it. And then, last night, at 12:30 AM after the ball dropped and we welcomed in the new year, this word just showed up.
Maybe it sounds a little selfish. But it isn’t for me. I mean, it’s obviously self-ish. But I mean for it to be a way to finish up all that trudging. To really learn how to cut myself some slack. To get back to doing what I need to do for my body and my mind.
The original word I had planned was enough. I didn’t love the word itself, but I liked what it meant. I wanted to explore what it really means to be enough. It’s something I struggle with. Feeling like I am enough, doing enough, being enough. Feeling good enough. It was also about telling myself, enough. To stop stressing or worrying or focusing too much on things that don’t need it.
I can be a gross over-thinker, and the idea was all about asking myself what’s enough to call it done, to call it good, to just start.
I also wanted to explore it in another way: what I’ve had enough of and too little of. I was planning that to be part of my monthly goal setting for 2015.
But then, this new word showed up. And when I take a step back, it’s really the bigger picture of what I wanted to think about with enough. Enough was going to be all about how I view myself, why I’m so hard on myself, and what things I wanted to get more of and less of into my life. That’s all part of this new self.
This year, instead of just choosing a word and reflecting on it casually, I’m participating in Ali Edwards’ One Little Word workshop. I hadn’t done too much with the words I chose the last two years, even though enjoy obviously stayed with me. But I’m looking forward to prompts and ideas for making my word more visible throughout the year.
Welcome to the party, 2015! I am so pleased you’re here.