i’m a member of weight watchers. i don’t talk about it much, and i’m not quite sure why. i think it’s because i’m still sensitive about my overweight past. i was always incredibly uncomfortable with myself. mentioning weight watchers in certain crowds sometimes makes me feel like i’m getting funny looks (which is probably all in my head). but it’s a really healthy thing for me.
it’s how i learned to stop feeling out of control with food. i can still eat things i had before, but i can still feel awesome afterward, because i know what i’m eating. it isn’t about struggling or starving to fit in a treat, it’s just about being honest with myself. that’s what’s missing for me when i’m away from the program for too long; i stop considering what i’m eating. weight watchers is just a sweet reminder of how good it is to eat the healthy things i love.
i’ve been away from it for too long. i’m a lifetime member, and like fran talks about, it means i need to weigh in just once a month to keep up membership. so, because other things come up, or i just miss sleeping in, i have been going to exactly one meeting a month. and i’ve slipped. meetings aren’t magic. they don’t mean that extra pounds start coming off and i get super willpower. but i have no accountability going along with this once-a-month habit i’ve developed. it’s really helpful to just have a simple check-in. to remember that binging (and i do not use the word lightly) actually has an impact on my body, and that even when i pretend it hasn’t happened, my body still remembers it.
it’s very easy for me to slip up a few times and get used to eating unhealthy things. even though i know my body feels worse this way, it’s difficult to get back to eating healthy meals and snacks. ridiculous, since i like healthy meals and snacks. it’s not like i suffer through them. but it involves actually thinking about what i’m eating. and i think this is the part that slips away so easily. like i mindlessly go for trash or things just missing nutrients, and don’t think about other options until afterward.
I know healthy living blogs can be a delicate subject. I’m sure some bloggers do restrict calories or exercise too much. when I started blogging, I considered a meal-by-meal blog, but I knew that it would probably leave me really unhappy. I’ve struggled with binge eating off and on for a long time, and I prefer the freedom to not dwell on it or focus on it when it’s over.
but… I really enjoy blogging and the community around it. and being an involved member with weight watchers. I think they make me happier and healthier than I am without them. and I really do think the “healthy living” blog community should be all about balance. healthy choices, but also really enjoying yourself. so eating a few too many cookies or drinking a few glasses of wine at dinner is all a part of it. I like sharing my journey, and it’s probably ok to share that weight watchers is a part of it, too. :p
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“we either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. the amount of work is the same.” — carlos casteneda