I read andie’s blog. andie makes me happy. I think she writes honestly. she’s serious about her weight loss journey (which, btw, I hate calling a journey, but it’s the only word that ever seems to fit).
this post was my favorite recently. she always writes something that ends up playing over and over in my head, and it’s always comforting and, well, makes me feel good. like this:
These are the trying times. These are the minutes, the hours, when you need to brace yourself and just ride it out. They are the ones that make up your character. Because, really- how you act when times are just peachy is nothing compared to how you act when times are rotten.
vacation is coming up, and I’ve fallen into doing what I always do. I decide I’d like to lose x-number of pounds, and think about what I should and shouldn’t eat, and ultimately just stress myself out about not seeing the number I want before the trip.
do I enjoy stressing myself out? I’d like to hope not. so, I’m not worrying about this any more.
I’m going on a beautiful vacation with someone I love spending time with. we’re going to have a fun and relaxing time almost-no-matter-what-happens (you know, freak things aside). and besides that, just packing and planning have the tendency to get me a little anxious.
the trip will be amazing no matter if I’ve gained or lost weight prior to it. and if my new swimsuit isn’t quite as comfortable as I thought it could be, EP will still like it. so none of this silliness actually matters.
last night, i met fran and ele at dunkin donuts for some catching up. as fran put it: “lots of talk about books and boys and life.” delightful ladies, as always.
i got a latte. even forgetting to ask for vanilla, it was warm and comforting. and there in the corner: that is not a secret.
i got a vanilla creme donut, and i loved it.
i went back home, at approx. bedtime, and decided i’d like to pack and organize a little more. and instead of reaching for the jar of peanut butter and bag of chocolate chips (like i did on monday), i decided to just go for it and make some dinner.
the veggie burger might not look so hot, but it was really satisfying, even if it was 9:00 pm. [morningstar grillers original on 10-grain toast, bbq sauce, and smashed avocado.]
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