Reverb10 was led last year by Gwen Bell, Kaileen Elise, and Cali Harris, to celebrate life and mourn losses. I answered about 5 prompts. This year, I’m creating my own Reverb11. It is a month-long challenge, to blog every day of December, reflect on 2011, and think about 2012. Feel free to answer my prompts or share your own.
Today’s prompt – REST: When did you feel the most relaxed?
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my biology class is over! i’ve been burnt out the last few weeks, but it was my first science class in a decade. in spite of that, i’ve been thinking recently that the plans i started making for the future might need to get hashed out again… more on that some other time.
i have one week to really get into the thick of the season. this is my favorite time of year. i hate the cold, and i hate the lack of sunshine, but christmas is the best.
i spent the morning walking around a cute town near me, getting lattes at starbucks, and a delicious breakfast on the main street. i was convinced something was wrong all day [not with me], so we were working through a little funk. it was cold, without many good stores to visit, but i miss being outside. and we were together. it was good.
i spent the night at my parents’ house, making candy and wrapping presents. except for a few last-minute things i keep adding to my list, i’m done my gift shopping. and i’m so excited to give my presents!
in light of the end of my first science class, i’ve been thinking about this reverb prompt. what do i want to do with my extra free time? i want to work on new things, and planning more of a path, but i want to relax, and comfort myself, and just take time for nothing. i thought of one of my favorite passages from 2011, from eat, pray, love…
generally speaking, americans have an inability to relax into sheer pleasure. ours is an entertainment-seeking nation, but not necessarily a pleasure-seeking one… americans work harder and longer and more stressful hours than anyone in the world today… of course, we all inevitably work too hard, then we get burned out and have to spend the whole weekend in our pajamas, eating cereal straight from the box and staring at the tv in a mild coma (which is the opposite of working, yes, but not exactly the same thing as pleasure). americans don’t really know how to do nothing… i once asked luca spaghetti if italians have that same problem… ‘oh, no! we are the masters of bel far niente.’ this is a sweet expression. bel far niente means ‘the beauty of doing nothing.’
i want to continue making an effort to be more mindful. i zone out in front of tv shows and my computer way too easily; i’d rather at least acknowledge how i’m spending my time. i barely ever enjoy the times i’m mindlessing watching like that. if i’m acknowledge, though, some activities like that do cheer me up and mellow me out. i follow some really fun people on twitter, and i have a good time reading through the list. i like reading other people’s blogs and seeing life through their photos.
i would like to get more into anything that satisfies me like crazy. sometimes, it’s a good tv show with a close friend, a delicious breakfast, breathing deep on the yoga mat. usually, it’s time with my love. these are all things that make me feel content all the way through, and i walk away feeling like the best of myself. that’s what i want even more of in 2012.